The best day ever.
I want to stop pretending I understand you. I always try to reach out to you, only to be berated with negativity and never-ending lists of things to do. Your lack of empathy is so apparent. Even as a child, I could never please you. Despite the success and efforts, I always seem to fall short of making you happy. What’s lost is happiness and confidence in myself. Every idea is never good enough. Every effort is always short of good enough. You always opine that I need to take responsibility for things in my life; but I have. You speak to me as if I’m an incompetent failure — how did I survive to this point in my life? Why are you so harsh? Why do you steal away my happiness? For the longest time, I faked positivity and happiness because it was what kept me believing there’s a brighter side of life. It worked. I often wonder what I would have truly felt or thought if there had been any ounce of positivity or happiness in our household. And still today, you lash out at me when I called to say Hello and confirm plans for Mother’s Day weekend. I’m completely deflated. I want to cancel plans. I want to actually feel happy and not drained at the end of every phone call. Will you ever understand how I feel? Will you ever listen or hear what I say? At what point will you decide to have a relationship with me versus just manage me?
I feel broken.
The ukulele… it’s gotta be one of the most portable and entertaining instruments in the world! I first came across this instrument while listening to Somewhere Over the Rainbow. The sound just gave off such a positive happy vibe. Then, a super gifted ukulele player by the name of Jake Shimabukuro caught my eye while scrolling through YouTube. His rendition of this song was incredible! I was hooked and just had to learn to play. So, here’s what I did….
My uke: Lanikai LU-21C Concert Ukulele
Today, I’m #20 on the call schedule after being #2 last night. It wasn’t bad… I left work around 7:30p and never got called back to the hospital. That’s a great #2 night! A couple of days ago, I awoke with a pinched nerve along the left side of my neck and it’s incredibly uncomfortable turning my head and just doing regular tasks (i.e. making the bed). Right now, I wreak of Bengay and I’m partially comforted with some Aleve. Hot compress, you are next! Sometimes, it’s really nice to enjoy a lazy morning with zero agenda other than to catch up on life and maybe even do some self reflection.
A buddy of mine sent me this article and asked me my thoughts….
I gave it a once over and thought, this is interested. A small sample size of various parents from various geographical regions all commenting on their children. Their is italicized because it seems like commenting on what the perfect number of children to have is so personal and completely unique to their experience.
It’s a heavy duty article with a lot of good perspective. I kind of agree with them all. I liked the one with 3 kids best… and the one with no kids the least. Since when did the purpose of procreation become about supporting the older generation? I had a tough one with that. I don’t think people have kids to look after them in old age.
What do u think?
This article came at a perfect time for me. Bear and I just got married; we’re older… and we’re looking to start a family. I just went on an Amazon spending spree for knowledge:
Even as an M.D., I am thirsty for knowledge in an area that I know pretty little about. Sure, I’ve rotated on OB/GYN as a med student — but that was back in 2005. Plus, doing two months of a rotation doesn’t equal a full understanding of mom’s body and baby’s development. It taught me how to safely deliver a baby, but I need to know and understand the building blocks leading up to that. Secondly, I’m an anesthesiologist who places labor epidurals for our pregnant ladies getting ready to welcome their little bundles of joy into the world. I typically meet the moms when they are having contractions and wanting pain control and follow-up with them at delivery. So you can see, there’s a 9 month knowledge gap that I need to fill in.
If you’re a future mom and are interested in an epidural, educate yourself on the pros and cons as well as what you expect to feel and when to ask for an epidural.
Remember, it is dependent on YOU as you are in control of your pain. A pain scale will vary from person to person (i.e. everyone has different pain tolerances). There’s no magical dilation number that tells you when to ask for an epidural. Keep in mind that you will need to hold extremely still when you do ask for an epidural. So please make it easy on your anesthesiologist (and yourself) and ask for an epidural when you are able to be as motionless as a statue — otherwise, it may be too risky to request an epidural if you are in too much pain to stay still.
I completely agree with the article below. It really opens yourself to learning about others and how it may differ from your own personal situation. Fantastic read!
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I played around with a skateboard when I was a kid. I thought it was neat to hang with the boys and skate in the driveway/street. Well, I didn’t get much street time as the street was paved with loose gravel on tar — which melted in the Texas summers.
I came across this YouTube vid: https://youtu.be/jdJjW7pknfE and decided I wanted to give it a try. Why are so many middle agers trying something that kids do often?
Any suggestions? What would you get?
It all started with 23 and me. Initially, I did it bc this company was just getting started, and I enjoy analytics and health and ancestry. Well, once I got the info from this, a colleague of mine told me about DNA Fit. It basically looks at your genetics and how your body handles nutrition, fitness, and metabolism. I found out a lot about my own health! Based on my DNA, it said my body does best with a Paleo diet. So, I opted to do a mostly paleo diet starting in October 2016 — with an upcoming wedding in February 2017, I was on a mission.
I started ordering Trifecta Nutrition for quick and organic Paleo meals. I would eat these meals 5 days a week for lunch at work. One of the biggest things I noticed was that I was fuller longer and had much less cravings for sweets. From October to February, I lost 10 lbs and got lean. Of course, I was also doing Sweat (iphone app) by Kayla Itsines. This is a no-nonsense program that you can do anywhere and anytime. In the past, I’ve done almost all of the beachbody products: p90, p90x, p90x3, chalean xtreme, turbo jam, insanity, turbo fire, hammer and chisel — of all of these, I really highly recommend P90x3 — it’s a terrific program that will give you results if you put in the work. But what I found is that I would actually stick to the Sweat program much longer and have faster recovery with her program vs. P90X3.
So what have a discovered about myself as I’ve taken a more Paleo heavy diet? I have less cravings. I perform better physically and mentally. I actually feel like I’m eating more and staying fuller longer. And that (for me), is one thing I absolutely love! Overall, I feel less deprivation…and that makes me happy!
What are your thoughts? Anyone else have similar or different experiences with a Paleo diet?
Good places to start: